Brightest smiles

I sometimes imagine,

what it would be like

to spend a lifetime with you.

I see us laugh.

I see us fight.

I see us make love

and fuck.

I picture the places we would visit,

the friends we would make along the way.

I can sometimes feel the seasons change

as we age.

but as I imagine,

your face begins to fade from my memory

and I begin again.

I realize now,

that this future is not ours

and never will be.

it’s a dream.

where you’ve saved your brightest smiles

just for me.


The Walk

a split second in time

two former lovers

make the same decision

a crisp breeze envelops them

as the sun warms their faces.

a split second in time

two former lovers

are awash within the same memories

of their love, of their anger

of their indifference.

a split second in time

two former lovers

come to the same realization

that their past indiscretions

wont determine their future.

a split second in time

two former lovers

turn down the same street

their smiles light up their eyes

until they meet once again.

for a split second

two former lovers

both yearn for what they lost

emotions clear in their faces

clearer than any words they had ever used.

two former lovers

turn away from each other

never before and never again

to be as in tuned

as they were that day.

Do you know

Looking you in the eye

hoping you would never know the truth.

Still feeling his lips on mine

the way his hands grazed over my thighs.

My heart races as I sit in these memories.

I wonder if you know.

Can you see my pulse, my heart beating

my cheeks flush?

Do you notice when I perk up

at the mention of his name?

How I go still when he enters the room?

Does my face

does my body betray me?

The same way I betrayed you?

Do you know?

That I will again.




There is a stillness

a silence in my mind.

It holds me so tight

I feel at home.


Then it constricts

and eases.

Constricts and eases


with my heartbeat.

I bang on my chest

hoping for its death.

Thump. Thump. Thump.

Be quiet

give me peace

be kind.

Give me back

my solitude.